Find Myself

I don't post on here anymore.  I haven't been much into the blog thing for quite sometime now, but I think I need to write on here more with my thoughts as a release.  Part of me likes to get things out where I can converse with other people and see their thoughts, but part of me likes to try to keep things private, so people don't know what I am really going through......

Lately in life I feel like I am out at sea drifting on a log and just going where ever the waves and current take me.  I feel no connection to things and people.  I am in survival mode, just trying to get through the day.  I don't know what my beliefs are anymore.  I don't know what my interests are anymore.  I feel like I need to do something more with my life but don't know how with my kids.  I feel like I can't even keep my house intact anymore.  I need a change in my life but I don't know what.  I think it is pretty safe to say that I am completely lost right now...... and I don't even know where to look to find myself again.  Am I the only one out there that feels like this?  It seems like so many others are happy with their lives (in general) and have their interests that they are pursuing, and I just feel completely lost and confused with very little motivation...... it's quite sad really.

Carol Tuttle Interview

http://thecarolblog.com/surprising-reasons-unemployment/

So here is the link to the video of my interview with the author (Carol Tuttle) of my favorite book Remembering Wholeness. I am embarrassed of how I look in the video. I had run out of face make-up & my hair was gross looking so I pulled it back into a ponytail (which didn't work in my favor). But anyway, I just want to share this in case there are others out there who are going through what I have been through and could use some help on the topic.

Getting Personal ......

With the author of my favorite book, Remembering Wholeness.



I have read this book about 5 times or so.... Love it! On Facebook today she asked if there are any people in Utah that would be willing to meet with her for a mini-clearing session. I read it and walked away thinking "No, I won't do that". And then something inside me said "Lindsi, you need this! This is being presented as an opportunity for you!" So I jumped back on, wrote her a private message giving her a brief writing on what my last year has looked like & what the core issues are that have risen up for me, & shortly after, she wrote me back saying that she would be honored to help me out!

I am very excited and extremely nervous! I am one who is always willing to open up to people about my personal life, but to have it recorded & posted on her blog is a little bit more scary for me, because you see, I am an UGLY crier! I have a fear of crying in front of people... I hate it! & the issues that I presented to her to work on, are deep, very deep, and I am sure the ugly cry may come out. But I care more about finding some help to clear these issues & to possibly help some other people out there who may watch it than I do about my own prideful appearance & my blotchy red face.

If all goes well, I will post the recording here to share with everyone... If I'm not too embarrassed!