Brookin's Hair

For those of you who aren't around me, Brookin is my lazy way of saying Brooklyn so I guess you could say that it is her nickname from mama.

This morning we got up before Brooklyn did (because her little sister woke us up), daddy went and got Brooklyn out of her crib when she finally woke up and this is what she looked like!!!

LOL!!! We got a good laugh at it. She takes after grandpa Mark!! Those in my family know what I am talking about.
This goes to prove that she is one crazy sleeper and I don't know how I am going to ever change her crib into a toddler bed without her falling out.

Then..... I gave her a bath and decided to paint her toenails for the first time and finally try some piggy tails!
They are so darling on her! I think it will take her a while to get used to having them. She has pulled them out a few times but then she lets me put them back in... she better get used to them because they are so cute on her.
One is higher than the other because I put them in, she pulled one out, then daddy put it back in up higher than mommy had it.
I actually feel like she is a little girl now instead of a little tom-boy. What a cutie.... but what a stinker these days.... I am NOT liking the toddler phase right now!

Random Pictures of Kenidi

It has been a long time since I have posted pictures of Kenidi so I thought I would some up that I have taken the past couple of weeks.

Oddly enough, she is looking up at her Uncle Doug! :) JK Dougy!
I love this little Bear suit! So nice to have in the cold weather.
There is the grin that we get to see lots of!
We blessed her yesterday so I was able to get a few pictures of her in her dress. Grandma Gabler took most of the pictures so I will have to get copies from her. I absolutely love her dress. This is the same dress that Brooklyn wore but it fits Kenidi way better since we waited to bless her and she is much bigger than Brooklyn was when she wore it.
Blurry feet but I love that she was looking up at me!

She is such a good baby. She is sleeping about 9-10 hours every night and is on a good napping cycle through out the day. She smiles and giggles like crazy and we LOVE to hear her.

Prompting?

Have you ever had one of those "promptings" that you can't tell if it is yourself thinking it up or if it is a real prompting from the spirit? I am having one of those...... not sure what to do. I don't want to step where I shouldn't be unless it truly is an inspiration.

What did I do with myself?

Yesterday I was cleaning out some boxes in the basement and I found a box that had my graduation stuff in it, some pictures from school, school dance pictures etc. I was going through the stuff and I felt a sadness.... not because I miss high school ( I actually hated it), but because I look back and realized that I pretty much did nothing! I wasn't a good student, I wasn't involved in the athletics, I wasn't a dancer, I can't play a musical instrument, I didn't do choir, I was unable to really pursue any art at that time.... What in the world did I do with myself!!!! The one and only thing I can think of that I did that I was proud of was I won the top Interior Designer Award for my high school..... but it wasn't like there were a ton of people even in the Interior Design program in high school.....

Here I am, 26 1/2, and I have a strong desire to learn how to play the cello! Call me crazy, but it is something that I would love to do. Will it ever happen? I don't know. It would be difficult with my girls and there is always the money factor of purchasing a cello, then you have to pay for lessons. If I did it, I would have to stick with it..... and I am realizing that their isn't much that I have stuck with in my life.

I was telling James about how I felt after looking at all of this stuff and he told me "You are a good mom and that is way more important than any of those things." It made me feel a little bit better, but I wish I would have done more with my life growing up. I now realize all of things that I missed out on back in my school days.... I know I am still young and there is definitely time to do things that I want to do, but nothing is easy when you have kids.

I will often sit and think "If money weren't an issue, what would I do with my life?" Now I'm not talking about run off and travel and buy a plane or helicopter, but what would I do with my everyday life. For example, I would love to take some classes. I want to learn more about energy work and how to improve myself more. I want to take some cooking classes, specifically pastry or dessert type cooking classes. I want to take the course Dressing Your Truth and go on a shopping spree afterwards and feel great about myself once again. I want to find a workout class that I enjoy and take it..... There is so much that I want to do and I feel stuck like I can't do any of it because of money and because I am nursing a child. And the thing is, I am only going to continue having kids and nursing so the timing isn't going to get any better for me. I love being a mom and I wouldn't trade it for the world, but I want to find ways to better me as a person and to find my own identity outside of just being a mom.