Embarrassing

I don't get embarrased easily, I am usually one who can make a joke of any situation & move on & don't care much about it. Well, yesterday in Relief Society, the one thing that I try hard to not have happen happened to me.

I hate crying & I ESPECIALLY hate crying in front of people (even my husband). Have you ever had something (or LOTS of somethings) that you have held in a for a long while?.... Than you know what happened! I was in RS & the lesson triggered ALL of those somethings & I couldn't hold it in. I tried & it wouldn't stay.... Then as the lesson went on, the crying got worse. My sweet friend Haylie ran & got me some tissue from the bathroom, but before I knew it, the tissue was full & I was getting into the ugly cry! I had to get up & leave during the closing song as EVERYONE was looking at me... Not to mention all the people in the hall looking at me!

I am an ugly crier! My face goes BEET red & blotchy & my eyes go an intense red & there is no hiding it.

One of the worst things about the situation is that it was Stake Conference & the RS StAke Presidency was there & was wondering what was going on with me! It was a hard situation for me to be in... & then my husband sees me afterwards & is wondering what in the world is going on! Last night on our way home he asked me about it again.... We stayed up talking about all the "somethings" for hours & I cried the whole time! Hopefully it is out of my system now & I don't have another public breakdown!

I just have to say that I have some of the SWEETEST friends! The one teaching the lesson brought me brownies & a sweet card, I got texts & messages & they all made me feel better the situation & the embarrassment I felt.... Thanks girls!